LIFE November 14th, 21st 2021 14 years later (long overdue update.) And what my life is like now (relationship-wise)

So basically this is just some notes I made in my phone about Alba and my relationship as it was evolving from just an acquaintance whom I had met on a mission trip to the Texas/ Mexico border into a friendship, then courtship into an engagement then into a party to celebrate the up coming marriage, then marriage again, and it'll end with the life after marriage and why this has taken me at least two days to finish (and pretty late on the second day also.)

 

(03/15/16 is when I wrote the majority of this just to be sure that I could remember just what happened in our relationship and how it started before that, so keep that in mind as you're reading this.) Now it's 11/11/21 and I have filled in some of the gaps and made this easier for someone to read and see the dates of what happened.

My first communication with Alba was while I was on the POWER Mission trip at Magdiel Bible College on the 
(28th of Jan. of 2014,) this was the same day that I heard God tell me that this angelic looking human being would be my wife. So I knew that I needed to talk with her somehow, (and if you really know me, you would know how incredibly shy I am when around someone that I am attracted to.) Luckily for me the leaders told us men who were in the class to go and ask a student if they had any prayer requests. And I was able to muster up enough courage to go and speak with Alba. So I prayed with her and did what was asked of us before I got down to what I really wanted. So I asked her if she had a FB and what email she used for it. So we started out communicating through FB Messenger for 1 year and 5 months just chatting every so often at first, then it slowly became more and more frequent until we were talking every day. 
She gave me permission to court her on or around 06/28/2015. And I had to look up online what 'courting someone actually was and meant. I knew what it meant in “theory,” but I just wanted to understand what it REALLY meant... (I mean I knew what it generally meant, but since it was such an old term that we don't use much anymore. And because I didn't want to mess this up by not knowing exactly what it was, I knew that I had to get it right. So I researched it, and made some changes in my life and mindset and when we started dating, I began "testing our relationship'' to see if what I heard God tell me was really true that she'd be my wife. After the first year of talking I figured out that she could be my best friend (which is who you want to marry right?)
I asked her to marry me where I first met her at the Magdiel Bible College on my best friend Chris' birthday (06/02/16) (I told his mom after he died that I'd name my first son after him.) 
So we had a "wedding party" in México on (06/16/17) to signify that we were going to get married a month later and a little less than a month later, 
we actually have the ceremony to be married (07/14/17). Spent our honeymoon night+2 days in the Mission Inn. We had so much fun getting married the first time that
we had to have another "wedding" again 5 days later on (07/19/17) in pastor Mark's office (we misplaced the marriage certificate…) And we spent the next 6 months on our next "honeymoon" in the Aspens apts. in an apartment that was literally right on the lake where they had a bunch of fish and turtles and all kinds of wild birds that would fly in and hang out by the lake as well as having their own bird sanctuary area (a big area with birds flying around and exercising and chatting with the other birds around. Then we moved into our first house in Moreno Valley.
We bought our house on around my birthday in 2017, (12/15/17.)
We had our first child (Christopher Alejandro Huddleston) on 10/10/19 
We had Olivia Faith Huddleston on 05/05/21
***(I'll come back to this point at the end.)

So I have never been in this kind of relationship before, obviously, since I'm not married yet. But one where God is at the center of EVERYTHING that we do. But it is truly one of the greatest feelings that I have ever felt in my life! And I just keep going back to realizing that it was all because I felt like God was telling me something that I believed to be just flat out “crazy!” But because I took that first step in faith, I feel like that just means that we both NEED to always be in prayer… And then hopefully things will always be good for us.


*** How lucky am I to have it so easy to remember the dates super easy to remember for my kids birthdays! I mean seriously! 10/10 and 05/05! (The hardest part about them is trying to remember the year. But I think I can do that part almost easy. I mean for Christopher if I just figure that 10+10=20 which is ALMOST=19. I mean it takes a lot of brain power to remember this. Nevertheless, I hope and pray that because it is super difficult to remember that because of this it will make it that much easier for me to remember. And actually, that seems to work for me. Because of how much I dislike people telling me what is going to be difficult for me. I like to prove those people wrong with a great passion! 

Photos will come ASAP (I've created a folder of pics needing to be approved on by "mi jefa," or in English,  my boss.)

October

Sorry i havent posted anything lately, I've been pretty busy with everything going on in my life for quite awhile! (Well at least since my graduation from Palo Alto’s PTRP...) BUT since it's been soo long since I last updated the blog, I got quite a bit to talk about now... Well after I graduated and received a certificate of completion from the PTRP program in Palo Alto, I came back down to my home and started to “fix” my room to be the way I want it to be! And that included getting a desk for my computer to be used at, a new bed, that I actually liked! And most importantly CLEANING OUT MY CLOSET or: throwing away all the useless crap I don’t use anymore. Well after I got those things taken care of, I wanted to start doing more rehab at the Loma Linda VA. So I started to do outpatient Speech and O.T. in these therapies I wanted to learn how to cook better for myself, (better food-wise.) Well now, looking back, I realize that I should have just watched my dad, and learn that way! It would have been much easier! One day during therapy when we were at Stater Brothers shopping, I got a text from my mom telling me that my best friend, ever since kindergarten, (like 18 years!) Well he ended up dying... So as hard as that was to take and deal with, I had to continue with my therapy I was in... In addition to my therapy, I took some classes at RCC, (the Speech therapist helped me with this.) One thing that definitely helped me studying for this class and its tests was the Kurzweil program, (a program that helps you organize your thoughts, and get them on paper, AND it reads the book to you.) So I took a class that taught us what job we could turn into our career. This was a useful class for me to take at this time. Because (in my situation) because I was intending on making the Air Force, into my career. But that opportunity was taken away from me when this accident ended up basically, “retiring me.” So I will now have to be “re-evaluated” every 15 months to see if I will be “fit enough” to go back into active duty or a full medical retirement.

On September 29, 2010 I started a new rehab program, Rehab Without Walls, where they actually COME TO YOU to do you rehab! (This is the next kind of rehab program thing for me.) They help me with Physical Therapy, Occupational Therapy, Speech Therapy, Recreational Therapy, and Social Work. Our goal for me is to live independently and be able to get around to everything that I want to do. This as I have found out so far, is A LOT! But it sucks because I'm at the point in my recovery process where I am getting close to actually being able to do the things I was doing before the Air Force! (Which is soo hard for me to be able to handle because before I was SOO BUSY! And now, I literally can't keep up with everything that I'm doing! But I believe that it ALL is pretty much a necessity for me, I can't just quit anything, without finding SOMETHING ELSE to fill it with!!!

Interviews

Okay, so here's a "condensed" version of the interviews we videotaped of our most memorable moments during David's recovery. Hopefully it makes sense still :). I posted them to YouTube as well, here are the links, just in case you want to view them there. It's about 25 minutes total, and it's Dad, Laura, Christa, Mom, and Bella.

part 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xEj4ixp0eGQ
part 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=86SJhExy1Qo
part 3: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NgyhavdKxiA

Our intentions initially were just to record this for David, so it's kinda personal... But we figured that maybe it could somehow be used to help other people going through tough times. So, feel free to pass it on if you see a need.

Love,
The Huddlestons

Tribute to David video 4

Well, I guess I need to change the music for the 4th video on Youtube. I had used How Great is Our God by Chris Tomlin, but WMG says it's a copyright violation (oops!). Sorry for the quiet video, I'll fix it as soon as I can... Man, it was a great song... Any ideas for another one?? For whatever reason it still seems to be working here... Thanks for passing it along :)

-Laura

Comment from Ginny, a TBI survivor

This is a comment that was sent to me-for David- from YouTube, because for some reason it couldn't be posted in the comment section on this site. I tried too and it wouldn't let me. Anyway, I loved the comment and it's great to hear others finding hope through what God has done for David, and to be able to offer prayer and support to those who also have to go through difficult times. So I really wanted to pass it on...

To David,
I have been praying for Mark Lamberth from CA who just had a brain injury from a dirt bike injury and is in Mission Hospital in Orange County when I saw your sister Christa's post telling them about you to give them hope. She urged them to watch your video's where it documents your injury and recovery. I pretty much cried on and off through out the 4 videos.

In September, 2005, I had a TBI at work. I can tell you that I could NEVER compare my injury to yours EVER. I have had 3 surgeries to repair the damage as I ruptured all 4 balance sacs and damaged 2 centers of my brain and a portion of a 3rd. The 2 surgeries weren't that successful but the 3rd one, I was so hopeful which turned out to be a nightmare. 6 days after I had a virus on my brain and they had to put me to sleep to heal. I am told that it is a miracle and I am very lucky because even though I have some great deficits, I didn't have to learn most skills over. So I know I am truly blessed. For about a year everyone walked on egg shells with me. They want to do another surgery but that one was more than I could handle and I lost alot of hearing, so I have dug my feet into the ground and refuse. They are not pushing me but tonight the Dr said that a 4th is probably in my future.

I feel like my vision feels worse. My ears hurt all the time and the SOUND that I have to deal with is getting louder. My patience is very thin these days. Any stressful time doesn't help. The holidays I suppose arent helping. I am tired and I hate my therapies. I have cognitive 3x a week. She's a doll though. If I have to stay in bed, she just does something for me in my room and lets me lay flat in my bed. Honestly, there are days I can't pick my head up and then there are days I think, wow, there's nothing wrong with me. Until I turn and my get dizzy and almost fall.
The cold weather of Jersey I am sure isn't helping because I am noticing that I do so much better in the warmer weather.

They won't let me back at OT, Vision and Vestibular therapy and PT because I had a very bad bout of Mastoiditis - fluid in my mastoid bones because where they cut in the surgeries. I was deaf almost a week - that was clostophobic!!! But they haven't cleared me yet and I feel like I will be unable to go thru it again.

Watching your videos were perfect timing for me. I have no one who cares enough to push me. Most of the time I feel alone because I don't have the family support you do. They watch the kids for me but since I don't look like I have anything wrong - they forget. The scriptures that your family placed in the videos, the music and watching your success has given me hope. I wear a hope ring on my left hand. The hope I thought I never gave up until this week, I realized I have given up. I wish I could just lay down and sleep and not do any more therapies. I'm tired.

I am going to watch your videos and pray that HOPE comes back into me, watching your recovery. Like I said....I've been alone - It's like I needed a kick in the behind. Thanks for the kick in the behind!!

I don't share with many people because I don't want them to look at me differently or think poorly because I know I have come a LONG way. I know. I may not have the video documentation like you do. But I know how far I've come. I just forget that - Hey, we are working on that in cognitive therapy - my memory still is poor but every day I surprise even myself.

Thanks - sorry so long. I would get yelled at that I didn't take breaks!! But I forget that too!!

May the Lord continue to give you strength and I thank HIM for directing me to know you today!!

I think its just the holidays. They are hard. I feel misunderstood most of the time.

God Bless You ,

Ginny New Jersey.

October and November, 2008

…Notes that I wrote during the time that I didn’t have anything posted....this blog HAS been on my list of things I needed to do! So, I have been taking notes on what I've been doing in each therapy for you all to read. That way you feel more “in touch” with the progress that I continue making...

10/08/2008
Alive Day - My family had a party for my one-year anniversary. It was amazing to see how many people still cared, and came to show their support. (Even though I haven’t been posting stuff on the blog!) My sister made a movie of my past year. We showed it on the big screen in the family room. It was an eye opener for me to see where I came from and how “pathetic” I was back then. I just hope that it gets out and gives other people with TBI hope. No matter how bad you are, there is still tomorrow, and there’s always a chance of getting better than you are at the moment.

10/17/2008
Meeting with Dr. Kim - My mom doesn’t think that I should move far away. She doesn’t want the situation of me going to Turkey to repeat itself. My mom says she wants me to be on my own, but thinks that we have all learned a big lesson by Laura and Brian moving away from the family. We miss them, they miss us, and would do anything to live by their family. She thinks that I could move to Loma Linda or Redlands, buy a house for the same payment as Palo Alto’s rent, and do outpatient therapy at LLVAH. It would be cheaper and closer to family where I can get some support. Later, when I am through with rehab, I could move anywhere I want.

10/24/2008
Cognitive Training - We reviewed one thing that I did yesterday. Checked the to do list and schedules
Took a quiz on a movie called “Peaceful Warrior”.

10/24/2008
Meeting with Dr. Kim - Dr. Kim says I need to change my way of doing things. I need to have more structure in my daily life! I thought I realized this. I wasn’t coerced into thinking this AT ALL!!! I’ll be getting twice as much done if I do this!

10/28/2008

Healthy Transitions Class - Almost fell asleep, did some progressive relaxation techniques. You close your eyes and count to ten. Or you imagine doing something that is really calming for you, like going to the beach. It is a way to teach yourself how to be completely relaxed when you get stressed. Or as I think of this, a way to have an acceptable reason to fall asleep in class/therapy!

10/31/2008
Cognitive thinking - We started writing a letter to the head hauncho guys in engineering to let them know what needs to be changed at the hospital. For instance, it is very confusing trying to find your way around the hospital if you’re just arriving there! Now that I’ve been around for a while, it isn’t so confusing anymore, except for building 100. Which I STILL find myself getting lost and turned around in! BUT what’s the good thing!? I can always find myself a way out! There’s something (just about everywhere) that in some way looks somewhat familiar to me! So I’ll just keep following the similarities until I get to a point where I know right where I'm at!!!

11/10/2008
Veterans Day - Visited my mom’s school and talked to a couple 5th grade classes about Veteran’s Day. I felt like a movie star, dressed in my uniform and everyone staring at me. It felt really cool but really weird to have people pay so much attention to me. I’m not used to people paying attention to me like that! I’m not one of those guys who just crave attention and live off it. But at the same time it was pretty cool to have that happen and I can see how people think it’s cool and get addicted to it in the end. It's a pretty powerful feeling to have.

11/11/2008
Recreation Class - Talked of plans for the holidays. Discussed our ski trip, dates, and who we were bringing. It is the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month…Veteran’s Day. Being that, now I'm the ROQ (recreation officer of the quarter) I am having to do A LOT more stuff than I normally might have been doing. This is one of the “leadership roles” for the PTRP program. The other one is the POM (personal objective manager). I have no idea what it stands for. All I know is what you are supposed to do while you are it! You’re the one who leads the “community meetings”, where all of us “trainees” get the chance to talk things over with the staff. I'm also supposed to keep the room pretty quiet while other people are talking. At first the staff didn’t think it could be done very well, mainly because nobody else has done it, ever! But I just took that as a challenge to be the first!

11/14/2008
My presentation - Dr. Scott asked me to share my sister’s movie about myself. I showed the movie to the staff and families on 7D. After it was over, an Air Force girl with a TBI came up and told me that it had really touched her and gave her hope. Which REALLY IS the only reason why I agreed to let it be made and why I agreed to show it to everyone in 7D! I don’t know why they have been calling it a presentation! It's not like I was making a public presentation of anything special or anything that people could buy or anything! But if it gives someone hope that they could make something out of the rest of their life, and can produce some sort of hope/dreams in people, then I am completely sold on doing this!

11/17/2008
Hippo-therapy – Sharon (my hippo therapist) kept telling me to keep my left heal down, which is a problem for me. It doesn’t want to go down. She reminded me repeatedly of my posture and wanted my hands to be even from my elbows to the bit. She made sure that, my wrists wouldn’t get out of line, by putting a dowel rod between my wrists in each hand, and told me to try to keep it steady and straight. Cowboy, the horse, had a mind of his own today. He kept doing things that I didn’t ask him to do… When I told him to turn left, he just kept walking straight. He is a stubborn little horse! My therapist wants me to always ride Cowboy because she thinks it will teach us both a lesson. Cowboy will learn to do what the rider wants, and I’ll learn that things won’t always go my way! …Which I refuse to admit!

Speech – We talked about my distractions, which are: open windows, doors, anything that makes noise and distracts me. We talked about ways to stop them, like closing the windows or doors, and asking people to stop making noises.
We talked about me sharing my movie with counselors at De Anza Community College. I might do this, just to give them some background information on how the T.B.I. works, more like just a baseline...
Also talked about showing the staff/therapists the Kurzweil program. But the CD does just as much teaching as I would do, so they might as well watch it.

Speech - I read an article to Marlene, Speech Therapist, with a paper as a guide for the line that I should be on. The paper helped but I don’t need it much. It took a couple of seconds off my time but not much.

Cognitive Learning Class - We learned Paired Association to memorize words:
It is easier to pair 12 words together, and associate the two together, than to memorize 12 random words. Because then if you hear one of the words you were trying to remember, it’ll give you a hint at what the other word is! For instance, orange and bowl. You could picture the football game tournament, the “orange bowl”. If you can remember one of the words in the pair, it is more possible to remember the other word! So it’s easier to remember six pairs of words than a list of 12 words.

11/20/2008
ARG (Adjustment Rehab Group - We gave examples of times we should have used “assertive behavior” (in-between when you should have been passive and confrontational in a conversation). You express your true feelings, but don’t let others take advantage of yourself. You state the problem and what you want. Or as we learned it with the acronym: EPW= Enemy Prisoner of War = Empathy Problem Want. The reason why this acronym worked out so well for our group is because we were all in the military!

11/21/2008
Hippo Therapy - My hippo therapist is always telling me to keep my shoulders back and up, and sit to up straight. This time, she didn’t have to tell me at all! I showed her!!! AND ME!!!

Healthy Transitions - Before my accident I used to sleep less. I guess in a way, this was “less healthy”. I didn’t have a “set” time that I would be in bed. I didn’t have the “want” to wake up early, or the ability. IF I woke up early, then I would feel like my day would be ruined.

2 Interesting Facts:
1. Even mild TBI’s lead patients to have less restful, lighter sleep, often affected by awakenings
2. Sleep problems can make rehab harder, and time consuming.
(and WHY would we want that! Rehab is already the HARDEST thing I've done in my ENTIRE life!!!

November 23, 2008

November 23, 2008


I am continuing at the polytrauma rehab program in Palo Alto. I'm in phase 2 now, and in the next phase, I'll be able to move out on my own. One place I'm considering is at "Shenendoah", a military housing place about 15 miles away from the VA Hospital. I would be coming back for outpatient therapy still.


Right now, I am working with the therapists on the driving simulator, and that is going pretty well. They say that I still have left-sided neglect, and that I keep slowly weaving to the left side of the lane. I can't figure out why, but I am trying to compensate by driving closer to the right side of the road. Hopefully I'll be able to drive soon. Yippee!


I have been working with Smita, the OT, on learning how to get around town and to the airport on the bus. This last week, she was off so I worked on "hippo therapy" again. Those two therapies are on the same day so they conflict and I have to trade off between the bus and the horses. "Hippo therapy" is actually on horses not hippos as someone would think! At hippo therapy, we ride on horses, and weave in and out of cones on the track. We work on balance. One time they had me ride up to a cone, pick up a heavy ball, then continue weaving on the track, and place the ball on the third cone down. One person walks with me, the side walker, who's always there. The therapist stands a distance away and tells you what to do. I ride for about 45 minutes twice a week. It is really fun and relaxing! It's really nice to be outside too.


In Speech Therapy I have been testing a lot.


Physical therapy is in the am. at 7 AM. I tend to be the only one who attends! Usually I do a cardio workout for 20 minutes or so. Then I work out on both legs and stretch out my left arm on the door. I put my left arm up on top of the door and sink my hips down as far as I can. My left arm is slowly getting better. I also carry around a "grip squeezer", that I had from Loma Linda OT, and work on it with both hands. I've been bike riding a couple of times, and am cleared to ride on campus with a therapist, but not by myself yet.


Vision Therapy is going pretty good. I work on a program called HTS. One game, I wear 3D glasses and look at a computer screen to find a box. I have to answer which direction the box is from the X in the center of the screen. It gets progressively harder to see and find. There is also a game/therapy where you look through power lenses, that you hold up to your eye, and figure out which direction the "C" is facing. These games both work to strengthen my eye muscles on different kinds of vergence, base in and base out. Once again, slowly but surely, my eyes are progressing.


In Keep It Cool, a group class, we learn how to focus our anger and keep our cool. When we start to get angry, we do some deep breathing to relax the tension or count to 10, (or 100)!


This weekend: Friday night, a group from the high school came in and helped us wrap som Christmas presents. Saturday, I went shopping with the a rec therapist and another patient, Mihntri, to the Apple and Verizon Store, and then to a Japanese garden in the San Francisco area. On the way home we ordered some pizza. Today, I went to church with Glenn and Sharon (volunteers at the VA) to the Menlo Park Presbyterian Church and then to brunch.


Sorry for not posting this sooner. I have been writing things down for awhile to update this blog and keep you all posted.



David